It may be a little early, but I’m already reflecting on the year and I can honestly define it as shit. There’s not one thing I can look back on and think “yeah, that was fun” because everything was surrounded by a load of shit.
The thing I find more upsetting about this year, isn’t about the events of this year, but the effect it’s had on me. I’ve lost me, the girl on top of the world has disappeared. How can you go from feeling like you have everything to feeling you have nothing? I can look back on a photo from a year ago and think “I was so happy then” but not now. It’s impossible to be happy now.
However there’s an escape from all this. I think it’s my hidden savior and that’s university. I will do anything I can to get there, away from this miserable state, away from the false pretenses and away from problems forced upon me. I’m officially done with it all. I think a plus from all this is that I officially do not give a shit what anyone has to say about me or my choices. I’ve taking on the approach “If you don’t like it, kindly fuck off.”
So, with two months to go exactly till 2014 I cannot wait. Because I know a new life is there for me, a much better one at that.